Another First Date

I went out on a date on Friday with Mr. Blind. We went to dinner, to see a movie, and then continued the evening with coffee and more talking at a local diner. It was really quite nice, and a bit frightening all at the same time.
I did find out a few more pieces of Mr. Blind's puzzle...
1) He does go to AA
2) He is in the printing business, and no, it is NOT porno or printing money. Actuallly, it is printing wine labels and we have some customers in common. Small world !

I was a little bit taken aback when he started talking about forging a relationship and then perhaps in the future getting married, if that's where we want to take it.
WOA, SLOW DOWN THERE HORSEY ! I was saying I didn't want anything long term, just friendship and fun..... and he's planning a walk down the aisle. Do men think this is what women want to hear ? Is it a way to get women to take their clothes off ?
I told Mr. Blind that I just want to take it very slowly, if that's okay.
Now I am thinking that any one in the dating pool should be able to say exactly what they are looking for. Let's say you are just looking for fun and friends, and perhaps a sexual relationship..... no strings attached. If you are a man, this is expected. If you're a woman, you sound like kind of a whore.

At the end of the night, Mr.Blind did lean over and kiss me and I was so surprised that I actually almost laughed. I really hadn't thought this dating thing through. I didn't realize that something so small as a little kiss, which I think I may have enjoyed, would send my mind reeling. It has been years and years since I was kissed by anyone but my husband. I forgot what a stranger's lips were like ! My mind is not sure whether I should be okay with this, or whether I should feel really sad.
Is it okay to kiss someone just for fun, or is it belittling what I had with my husband? Should I kiss him back, to see if I like it, or will I be cheating on my dead husband. Am I crazy ? Should I just call off any future dates right now ?

I am starting to get hives just trying to figure this all out. I guess I'll go on one more date, just to test the waters !!! Ahoy !